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Wednesday, November 11, 2009

School > Home (shower) > Mac > Suntec > CityLink > Vivo > home .
Yonglee, Edwin, ale, char & vivian came to my house.
Me, char & amanda shower while th rest wait. lol
Meet up w/ su. And off we go to suntec.
Laughed alot while dining at ASTON. Thanks amanda for those silly things :)
Eversince he told me he like .. , i never laugh until so crazy before. THANKS.
I'm really very tired now. ): Had a long talk w/ su while training back to B.K
Memories really let me go crazy. How i wish we're still tgt. Discussing about our future.
Like how we used to discuss about our travelling and all. D:
BYEBYEEBYEEE ! SixteeeeeeeeenMoreeeeeeeDays! <3

Sometimes, i wish i were a lil kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.
Heart broken, i found myself thinking about you constantly.
I missed th scent of your clothes and th way you grasped my hand carefully curling your fingers around mine.
I missed you telling me you don't ever want to lose me. I missed how i felt complete when we were tgt.
My heart wouldn't let go of th love it felt. Love does not begin and end th way we seen to think it does.
Love is a battle, love is a war. Love is a growing up. I'l do anything just to see you.
I look over your smses and i cried for memories that remained buried in my broken heart.
Th tears stung my cheeks as i rmbed those terrible words you've said to me.
I just couldn't bear to let go. You're my first love, th first and only boy i ever gave my kiss and hugs.
I couldn't forget. I was too hurt and lost. I wanted ... I wanted nothing more than to cry myself to sleep
and never wake up. You changed my life in an incredible way, and for that, i'll always love you.
No boys had ever shown me this kind of attention before. Serioulsy and i swear .
I experienced alot of first w/ you. My first kiss, my first serious love, and my first time i love until so deep.
I can never find anyone better than you already. You came and go, but my love remains still.
I'll never find a boy that will give me th same feel anymore. Why things always turn out to be different.
I just want your feeling for me to return. I'll do anything just to let your feelings return.
I don't mind living shorter life, i don't mind suffering from anything. I DON"T MIND!
I know love can't be force and if you're mine, you'll come back to me. But my heart feels very terrible.
My heart ache when i miss you. I want to shout out for you when i miss you.
I really miss you so badly. I really love you so badly. Can time rewind?
I'm willing to lose anything and i'm willing to exchange my life it.
W/o you, my life is meaningless already. I rather die than losing you.
I cried till my eyes are swollen and red. You don't even care. Whats th point of living in this world?
If die can let you care for me, i'd rather gamble it. Seventeen, i'm leaving this land. I'm going to th middle of th sea.
If i get th chance to jump off th yacht, i won't want to get up already.
I'd rather drown and die in th sea. And i'll request to appear in your dreams.
People say me stubborn, silly & stupid. They ask me to let go, but i keep say don't want.
Why? Its simple, cause i love you chunhei ! Trust me, i'll wait for you till th day come. ily, imy, iny! <3

Moodless.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Me : HAHAHAHAHAH, seventeen more days!!
MrsWong : Why so happy uh? Got boyf isit?
Me : No uh. hahahahaha
MrsWong : I know who is he.
Me : hahaha, no luhh!
MrsWong : Why'll you choose him?
Me : Dk, hahahahahahh!
MrsWong : I help you choose better one want?
Me : Don't want. haha.
MrsWong : You see, wenhao so good. aiyo so cute. haha
Me : eeeeeeeeeee! HAHAHAHAHA
Byebye. Seventeen more days ... D;
My heart beats for you. I believe you're th one i'm always waiting for. I only want to lead a simple life.
Opening my eyes seeing you, giving you a morning kiss and eating breakfast together.
Nothing really mean more than you. I would rather lose everything but not you.
People ask me to let you go. But i really can't D; Its really very hard. Memorires is flooding back again & again.
I know you love her, i know you'll only miss her and i know you'll only need her in your life.
But what about me? I know i love you, i know i miss you, i know i need you too ! I really can't bear to leave you.
Nomatter how long it takes, i'll surely wait. Cause i know its hard to find a guy i really love and rely on.
Even if i say i want break, you've no choice but to agree. You still ask me to takecare and all.
You also tell me not to let other guy take advantage of me. I always bear this in my mind.
When i'm w/ you, i really feel very secure. Idk why either. I'm not scared of anything.
Cause i know you'll protect me nomatter what. I loveyou alot alot alot alot!
I lie on my bed at night and pray hard that you'll think of me. How i wish i can cry until fall asleep and never wake up.
I carry on feigning joy and feeling pain. I try to relax, yet in my mind, i wonder what to do.
If we can really patch back, that would be th best christmas present i've ever receive.
All th things we've done, its kept in my heart till now. I miss your hug and kiss alot !
My heart is full of tears, even my dreams is missing you. i'll be waiting for you.
I want to tell you iloveyou. I'm crying alone for you. I'm missing you alone!!
When i miss you when my heart is in pain, i just want to tell you ... iloveyou, i missyou & i needyou in my life!

Does die solve everything?

Monday, November 9, 2009

Schooled > Sms w/ hanru :) > Lunched > Mac > Blocked w/ darling > Homed.
Bye, after crying i felt so much better. thanks darling.
Last night when i'm reading a storybook, things started to flash back again.
And yes, i did teared. Idk why i'm so heartless. Ignore you when we're out. Neglect you & keep on pangseh you.
I really hate myself alot. I asked myself again and again. Why i can't be a good stead ? WHY WHY WHY ???
I believe we can last one. But because of my extra feelings, we end . Its sucha pity.
Th book really taught me alot. If i get pressured by going out w/ my bf alone, that means i'm not ready to have one.
If you're really ready for one, you won't feel so uncomfortable when you're out w/ him.
Maybe last time i'm really not ready for one. But that doesn't mean i don't love you at all.
I gave you all my first time. My first kiss, my first hug and its my first time holding my stead's hand.
You're my first stead you know? Only su & char know why. I don't even dare to tell anyone about it.
Th first time i love a guy until like this. Th first time i cry until like this. Th first time i'm so crazy over a boy.
I dreamt until you last night, same old thing, we went movie. I was really very happy.
When th alram ring, i woke up & realise that all turn into a dream. I seat on my bed and cry. I hate it.
How i wish i can carry on dreaming and never wake up. That would be th best for me.
From now on, i won't feel any pressure already. Cause after once meeting up w/ a guy alone,
I don't feel anything weird. I know i can do it. This break really let me realise & learnt alot.
Trust me, i'll treasure you more than last time. Cause i believe, you're th guy i need for th rest of my life.
My heart really break, i really miss you alot. I run all th way to th toilet to cry.
I know you'll only miss her when you're at HK. I don't even stand a chance to occcupy a place in your heart and mind.
But you'll always occupy my whole heart. Past, now or future. My whole heart will only be yours.
Cause my love for you is too deep. iloveyou, iloveyou, iloveyou ......

2nd day only ...

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Happy Birthday, D A R L I N G ! <3
I'm back home. I'm really very tired.
Today idk why i keep bang until ppl. Total of 4 to 5 ppl. -.-
I walk walk walk then bang until alot of uncle and all. Idiot.
Bye.
I miss movie-ing w/ you. I still rmb everything we did while we're in th theatre.
I still rmb we hold hands tgt throughout th whole movie. I really miss that moment.
How i wish we can keep movie movie movie non-stop. Hais, everyday wondering what are you doing at HK.
Did you listen to me? Did you smoke lesser & drink plenty of water? I'm really wondering ....
You know, today i saw a girl look really alike like you!! Her side view is 99 % Alike sia !
All th way, i was like keep staring at her throughout th whole journey.
And yes, i'm laughing & giggling while staring at her. While i passby a CD shop, i paused.
I saw until th " xia dao xiao " movie. Idk why suddenly i've th urge to cry.
I really miss you. I had never felt so hurt before. I'll be waiting and waiting until th day comes.
Cause nothing mean more than you :) iloveyou ♥

ilove you.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Skip Breakf > School > Skip lunch > Choir > Home > KB.
How i wish all this can just turn into a nightmare. And when i wakeup, i'll mend everything.
Please, take very good care of yourself when you're there. Don't smoke too much okay?
Idk why i'm crying now. I should feel happy for you. imissyou imissyou imissyou b.
Trust me, i'll be waiting for you. I won't let you get anymore hurt already.
And yes, i know love can't be force. If you really really don't love me anymore, i understand.
But, i still will love you vvvvvv. much. Cause i believe in TwentySeven.
I won't let you shed anymore tears. You'll always remain in my heart.
Nomatter who you choose in th end, i'll certainly respect your decision.
But still, i hope twentyseven will really come. Thats my last wish. And my only wish.
I miss you helping me to wipe off th tears on my face. Cause i really love it. Its so sweet.
But now, no one can help me do all this already. Even if theres other boy help me, i won't find it sweet anymore.
Lastly, iloveyou chunhei. Hoping to seeyou after one month.

i miss you.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

HappyBday Geoffery. (:
Same old thing. School > eat > homed. Byebye.

Only slept for about half an hour or so today. I'm really really very tired. D:
How i wish i can fall asleep and never wake up.
I'm a girl that have a v. special dictionary. In it, smile doesn't exist. Only cry this word exists.
Th path i'm walking now is really vvvv. hard. If i've th heart, i'm sure i'll be able to walk pass it.
Sometimes, i'm thinking that am i th obstacle between them? This question is really bothering me.
My heart carrys a vvvv. big QuestionMark. Can anyone answer me? Or tell me.
Everything i see w/ my eyes is memories of you. But iknow, i'm no longer in your heart.
These few days, i'm crying, crying and crying. Nothing really cheer me up.
I need happy pills instead of medicine pills. Anyone know where to get it ?
I only know 3 ways of de-stressing. Cut, ______, shout & cry. When i'm stress, i'll tend to do all this.
You're leaving real soon, 你一去, 就去一个月. So long DDDDD: I comfirm will missyou like siao.
Hais, i can't even see you already. Just hoping you can come school.
Cause thats th only place i can get to seeyou. Looking out of th window everyday, hoping i can take a look at you.
But it only disappoint me, cause i can't even get to see until you! D: Seriously, ilove twentyseven alot alot alot.
And yes, twentyseven will stay alive in my heart forever. And it'll never end.
Cause i believe, this time round i'm not playing & im true. I look back to my older post.
And i saw a post. Its you th one who helped me. Th only post you write. While reading it, i cry alot.
I really miss th times when we're together. Though we often quarrel but you still love me that much.
I miss movie-ing w/ you. I miss th times when we're alone. - though its only sometimes.
I miss you saying iloveyou to me on phone. I missyou hugging me. I miss every single thing.
MeLuvYouVVVV.Much! <3333
My son, momo :DDDD
2 + 7 = 27 :)

heartache,

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

School > MeeHoonKueh > Chinatown > KB > Homed.
Bye, its getting more and more complicated.
My mind is spinning. Idk what you really want. And i've cried over and over.
I'm really feeling very terrible. D: If i can get th chance to choose again, i won't even want to suggest 'break' this word.
Its really really very pain. Firstly, i know you like A. Secondly, i know B like you.
Why is this thing getting more and more complicated !? Idk among all of us who will you really choose.
But in my heart, i think i already got an answer. Its A. You say i'll get my retribution soon.
And yes, this is my retribution. I'm suffering from what you're suffering th past few months.
I shouldn't be that harsh. I blame myself. imissyou still. When i'm missing you, i really want to tell you.
But i doubt you felt nothing. But seriously, i never cry for a guy until like this jialat.
Idk what to do then th feelings will come back to you. But i can promise, so long as i'm still alive, i'll wait.
I know say only ma, free-of-charge th leh. But let me tell you.
I'll really wait. Let me prove to you, this time i'm really really very serious.
Lastly, iloveyou, imissyou, ineedyou and i can't leave w/o you b. <3